The Wish To Be a Girl and Wear Girl's Clothing

by Winfie (5-B-1)

In recent years, somewhat more attention has been paid by medical men, (including psychiatrists) psychologists and some lay- men to the problem of transvestism and transsexualism. The book Transvestism (Edited by the late Dr. David 0. Cauldwell) presents some interesting and stimulating articles by both professional men and by Transvestites. I have, in my rather extensive library many scientific books and not a few periodicals on the subject of Transvestism and Transsexualism. It would seem that usually the medical men should have a more soundly based knowledge of the dynamics of Transvestism than the Transvestites (excepting any persons of the professions who may have been or still are, Trans- vestites). On the other hand, (again excepting the same group) it would seem that the actual feelings of the Eonists can be known only to themselves. Hence, the first group can be more ob- jective than the latter in many cases, but they will never, un- less themselves Transvestites, quite understand the feelings of the latter.

As a Transvestite and Transsexualist I propose to give some authentic facts about myself, with comments. The existence of such a magazine as Transvestia can prove helpful in providing a medium through which such experiences may be shared and in so do- ing can be cathartic. Most of us have no wish to be rid of our desires, but in most cases they have to be satisfied in loneliness. Having them printed can be a vicarious way of communing with others who feel the same way.

My Transvestitism and Transsexualism have not been shared. The former is known to my wife and daughter and the latter who has never seen me in feminine clothing is quite accepting of it whereas my wife is disgusted so that I wear my finery only when she is not around as I do not think it fair to do otherwise. My Transsexualism is known only to myself. At times the desire to be a woman in form is excruciatingly intense but at my age I re- alize that there is no hope for a change.

I am now 57 years old though my phsician and others have

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